sorry that i'm not brave enough

sorry that i'm not brave enough

sorry that i'm recreance

sorry that i just want to hide myself for this time

i know i'm weak

i already place myself at the corner of the wall

i don't want to force myself anymore

i don't want to force myself to accept the truth

the every changes in my life

i don't want force myself to face my problem

which i have to face

but...i still have to face it

just

i have to face it myself

i don't want any suggestions

i don't want to look clear on something else

which i can't accept and adapt to

it's really a big changes for me

just i don't want to say it out

and sorry that i don't want to mention it out

anyone of you

don't ask me after reading this post

everything just end at here

no asking...no knowing

alright???

and

someone who make my family and i mad

sorry that i will hurt you in one day

i won't place you at a position which so worshipful and respectful

cause you already step into our private part

it's one of infringe

i will do my best to protect myself and my aunties

you better have to be aware

and don't do it again in the area of my line of sight

i can't promise what will i do

just be a respectful eldership

or else

i will report to police or i will hit you 99

(if i dare enough and my parents allow me to do so)

and be fair

don't act like you have a mental problem and you already crazy

or forget everything else

please don't fool on us

someone who have these conditions

they won't go buy TOTO or what

they won't play mahjong

they won't know how to count for money

they won't know the value of money

they won't know how to complain if anyone of us didn't call you "granduncle" or "uncle"

they won't know how to choose the foods

they won't know which foods are nice or bad

they won't remember clearly about what they did

they won't know how to indecorum others!!!!!

so

FUCK OFF!!!!!

and keep your mouth shut!!!!!